At the expense of beating a dead horse I'm keeping on the theme that Benson started over the weekend. Its because I'm really confused about what to do? Who do I vote in the primary now? Up until last Wednesday or Thursday I was strong Cathy supporter, but now not so much. Its been really hard trying to figure out what do about a lot things surrounding this particular issue. A whole range of things have been going through my mind as of late trying to get a grasp of what is going on and how will all this shake out come November. Things like how do we stop Perdue from calling a special session, like Melanie Erye said on her blog post on Blog For Democracy its not like this is a crisis that has to be settled right now. Why do we need a special session on this issue? Its not like the LGBT community can now marry. Can we even stop Sonny from calling a special session? Why are people so gun ho about having an Amendment to our constitution anyway? To make gay marriage even more illegal? Does that make sense to anyone? It doesn't to me. Then is where gets really confusing for me. I feel like I'm being pulled in two very different directions here. My brain is telling me to keep plugging away for Cathy Cox and her campaign because to me she is the most logical choice for Governor, but heart feels like its betraying my friends in LGBT community. I'm not sure how many of you out there watched the West Wing but there is scene in the second season that I have been thinking about since this all went down. Its the first episode from that season and Leo is talking to Jed about how sick and tired he is about getting excited over a candidate then being seriously disappointed in the end or picking between the lesser of the who cares or the bar being set so low that you can't even see it anymore. This is now how I feel. I was really excited about Cathy Cox and now not so much. Does that mean that I should now vote for Mark Taylor because he has always been for the Gay Marriage Amendment and at least he doesn't say one thing and do another? What is the point in voting for him if can't win the general election against Sonny? Isn't that a wasted vote? Why do we always shoot ourselves in the foot? Why can't we say one thing and do the same thing? For some reason or another I expected more out of my leaders. Maybe I'm just naive still about how our political leaders should be or maybe its just the product of to much West Wing.